So I know that I took a HUGE risk in moving to New York knowing that the possiblity of the contract not being renewed and I myself took that gamble, and now I've lost :( My contract is ending in 24 days. Of those 24 days I'll only be working 17 days! This is Crazy insane and I can't believe it has really come down to this! NOW WHAT? Shane asked me last night what do I want to do now? There is NO want in this situation what so ever there is only what we are going to have to do and I don't even know what that is! I have been applying my butt off to other jobs for at least 2 months now and NOTHING has happened! DAMN CPOL/CPAC and their STUPID system and I can't get my resume picked up for NOTHING even though I pratically had other more experienced people write it for me and still nothing! I hate the way this system works and just because Shane retired I can't even apply for half the jobs :( I know what I can do, I know what I am qualified for but I'm not even given a chance :(
So now what? I keep applying for jobs and even apply for jobs that are "below" me now just so that we can at least pay our bills! If I just go on unemployment that will be like making 8.25 a hour! OMFG I haven't made that little of an amount since I was in HIGH SCHOOL! This is NUTS!
I still just can't belive that I have put my family in this position, I'm sure a failure :(